Thankful 6-12

Oops, forgot about this so here's some generic things I've been grateful for the last week.
6. My student loan appeal going through.
7. Getting accepted into the credential program
8. Figuring out in time that I don't want to teach
9. Free turkey
10. Cute boys even if they have to work late and you don't get to see them like planned
11. Parents who will drive two hours to bring you a couch
12. Veterans

Thankful 4

Yesterday I had to say I was thankful for insulin. It covers me when I do stupid crap. Yeah, like eat cookies.

Thankful Day 3

Yesterday I was thankful for a good friend who wouldn't let me hole up and isolate. We went to staples and watched movies.

Thankful Days 1-2

1. I'm doing the gratitude thing again, but I forgot and got a late start. On the first I'd have to say I'm grateful for the B I got on my British Literature midterm. Now I'm not freaking out so much about that class. A 'B' isn't perfect; it isn't an A. Still, I'm learning to accept doing what I can. Also, not bad for not reading everything.
2. Yesterday I was so grateful for my sponsor. She talked me through a really rough spot. I was sitting in my garage afraid to go inside for fear I would eat. I stayed on the phone with her until I could promise I wouldn't eat. Awesome sponsor.

audible

So earlier today I opened an email from amazon promising free audiobooks. It was some new feature connecting their kindle versions with audiobooks, but I finally signed up for audible.com's free 30 day trial. The reason I did it was to get JK Rowling's new book, A Casual Vacancy. I am a Harry Potter fan and even read the small book of tales from that world which Rowling published. So I was very excited for her first adult novel. I had no idea what it was about, just who wrote it. Still, it.was enough for me to sign up for.audible.  I started listening as I was making breakfast and enjoyed the great writing and powerful imagery as I weighed my yogurt and pineapple. Unfortunately, about 15 minutes into the book there was a scene where the foul language made me so uncomfortable I had to turn it off. I was by myself and know I've heard worse language in my life, but I didn't want to bring that language around me. So I turned it off. Thank you audible for me not actually buying the book. JK, you're a great writer, but I think I'll stick to your children's novels.

New Start

Earlier I wrote a bit about FA - food addicts in recovery anonymous. Well I've gone back to it. It truly may be the only solution for me. I've tried everything, even having gastric bypass surgery. It's been 2 1/2 years since my surgery. I'm still 45lbs smaller, but slowly gaining it all back. But worse, and more scary, is the diabetes. It's so out of control. I even went to the hospital last month because my blood sugar was so high. It was boring. And copays are expensive. So the next several times my blood sugar got high enough to go to the hospital, I just took care of it myself. So I've been doing FA, by doing I mean working with a sponsor, for the last two months. I've lost 11.8lbs. That's it. I'm frusttrated because I expected it to come off faster. And it probably would have if I stayed "abstinent" (I'll explain that in another post) every day. But it was maybe 1/2 of the days  that I ate right and the other half I seriously binged. But I made 3 days at one point, and I know I've made two weeks when I've done it before. Being in program for two months now is the longest I've stayed in. Maybe it's desperation.

Spring Break

I love being on spring break. I love not going to school. But why oh why am I such a procrastinator? I have a 12 page paper to write, and I haven't even begun yet. It's due in less than a week. However here is what I did do:

- go to an amazing Seder (ie Passover) dinner with my best friend and her almost entire extended family

- work and work

- clean my house

- minimalize!

- visit my parents

- run a bunch of errands I'd been putting off like getting an oil change

- visit my best friend a second time

and today I'm going to spend the day in the bay area. We'll see how it goes. It's likely to end in exstatics or tears.

while I'm at it

I figure while I'm being reflective, I'll mention the most hysterical Christmas present ever. Thank you sister for a wreath made of menstrual pads.

A month late on the reflectiveness

So most people do this sort of thing in January, but I actually didn't get reflective about 2011 until Jan 2012. So here's my year as far as I remember:

Janurary:

Lived in San Mateo. Went on the most amazing date of my life. Did 30ish days of outpatient/php at Mills Penninusla.

February:

Started residential treatment at Center for Hope of the Sierras. Started a new path on loving and taking care of myself.

March:

Continued CHS. My grandma passed away. Had my first birthday cake that I enjoyed and enjoyed keeping down.

April:

Stepped down to outpatient/php at CHS. Stayed on a bucking horse and found my confidence.

May:

Came home from CHS. Started living life at home on the road to recovery.

June:

Got job at Curves. My horse moved to a ranch 10 minutes away and I got to see him and ride him all the time.

July:

I don't remember anything particular happening this month, excepting really missing my sister, Lacey.

August:

Started back at school.

September:

Roommate drama hell.

October:

Started to relapse.Relapsed, though not as bad as before going into treatment. Car got broken into.

November:

Relapse continued. Started pulling myself out of it. Second Thanksgiving of my life away from my parents.

December:

Pulled myself out of it. Christmas.

It seems like last year was so much about my eating disorder. Next year, I want this all to be about living life!

FHE 4

Zicam! the end.
Yogurt
X the Roman numeral (I challenge you to do better)
weight
vase
umbrella

FHE 3

Pizza, Quilt, Ring, Soda, Turtles

FHE 2

So blogger would only let me add so many pics at a time and I accidentally published the post so oh well.

Fish

Geena! (me)

Hand

Ice

Jello

Key

Hand

Lips

Millicent (current roommate)

Olives

Napkin

Family Home Evening

So at FHE tonight we went on a photo scavenger hunt. We had to find things that started with letters A-Z, in order. Sooooo since I'm a dork, I'm going to post my teams pics. Also because we used my camera. And because we one for doing it the fastest; probably because I was cheap with the gas and didn't want to leave the house.

Apple Cinnammon Soy Crisps

Butter

Cake batter

Duane

Eggs